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about a year ago after eating a couple grams of mushrooms I started to experience severe anhedonia and depression after not sleeping for three weeks from what I think was caused by heavy drug abuse in high school. I had never been diagnosed with adhd but frequently took any meds I could find to get through highschool while combining it with various amounts of pot, cigarettes , mdma, and alchohol. I started to notice myself changing and happiness fading away but was to caught up in everything to link it to drug abuse. Mushrooms made me realize this but also triggered my anhedonia. I can tell it if I drink large amounts of caffeine or sweet foods due to poor brain functioning, but just in general i have a hard time doing things like reading, keeping up a conversation, comprehending and thinking quickly ect since this has happened and how i ued to be.. My perception is nowhere what it used to be, almost feels like im in a hole or have gone "blind" mentally. I think the mushroom
I'm starting to question whether us that suffer with mental health are the normal ones and every one else is behind
I meditate a lot and I’ve come to the conclusion that nothing is real. Only consciousness. You can’t even be sure if you’re dreaming all this or not but you can be sure that you are conscious. You are the observer. 
I've heard of people who have gambled away their life savings while on Abilify, there was a huge lawsuit against the makers of Abilify, another woman became promiscuous..
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“When it comes to psychiatry, mental illnesses are not discovered, they’re invented.” — Dr. Jeffrey Schaler, Prof. of Psychology